Its the end of the school year and the time has come around again where everything just seems be on the line. Its crunch time. I have one week left of classes in which I have four lab write ups to do, a test to make up, finals to study for for and it is all riding on this. How I do this semester will determine what I will be doing this summer and if I will be able to apply to the nursing program Im striving for and how long of a wait I'll have between now and my start date.
Every now and then life seems to have those moments, or the accumulation of moments where it all seems to count on that one thing. Well I'd like to say that the majority of those happenings in my life ended in the results I was hoping for but I can't. My life isn't like the movies where you know the underdog team, will win the championship or cinderella will find her prince, if they didn't then no one would watch them. I do have those times that no matter how hard I try, I just fall short. And yes, it sucks. But its that very dose of reality that keeps me diligent, and faithful, and on my knees, rather than arrogantly and pridefully assuming of my successes. I have had two very different examples of this in the past week, pertaining to school; Recently I wrote a paper for my Human Growth and Development class and I wanted an A. I thought I did pretty well on the paper personally and thought at worse I would get a B on it, however I had waited til the day before and morning of to write it. I knew that I needed and A in the course to get the GPA I needed, and I knew the weight of the assignment in comparison to others in the semester, but I still chose to wait until the last minutes to do the assignment, assuming that I could do so and still get the grade I wanted partially because I underestimated the paper in itself and also because I overestimated my writing skills, pridefully weighing it over adequate research and time management. To my dismay, I got a C on the paper. A 70% which to me is basically a D save for the one point. I earned my C and I took responsibility for my lack of prioritizing the assignment but the full weight of my choice hadn't fully hit me yet, until I looked at how it had affected me overall. Consequently, in the class that I had at first aimed to get an A in, I can only realistically hope for a B at best and even then, that will be hard earned. (Oh don't mind that noise, its just the sound of reality smacking me in the face!) On the bright side, (of course there is a bright side, there always is!) I have been working pretty hard in my Stats class to get an A so I don't have to take the final and it has paid off for me so far. I studied vey hard for my test last week and got a 100% which proves that handwork does reap good rewards! Although it feels like I'm skating on "thin ice" right now and am enduring an enormous amount of stress, in a matter of weeks I will be wishing I was back in school and would give anything for an assignment, so I am looking for the joy in it now. I always tell myself that I will work on my procrastination and that next year I won't get lax and I will stay dedicated and diligent and a whole list of things that I never end up doing. I think there will be always be a small part of me that will have that procrastinating bone and desire to get lazy, but I hope that over time I do get the strength to withstand it longer. But honestly, if I let myself think about it for a moment, living life completely responsible and never procrastinating, always having things done on time it would be boring! I mean a little stress isn't so bad, especially after you have learned how to manage it. Now I am in now way a stress-seeking junkie but realistically speaking I will never reach a point where I do away with my procrastinating ways altogether, and that's okay. But for right now, while I still have room to grow, I will make goals and plans, and continue to do my best and hopefully the results I get aren't too far from the ones I was hoping for.
Since it took me longer to come back and finish this posting than I had expected, I decided to go ahead and tell you the end results of my semester:
Human Growth and Development: B
Anatomy and Physiology lecture: A
Anatomy and Physiology lab: B
Probability and Statistics: A
Microbiology lecture: A
Microbiology lab: A
GPA: 3.74
So yes, hard work does pay off and though I was just a bit shy of my 4.0 goal, I still did pretty well and put myself that much closer to goal, yay me!!!
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